NikkiSaysItAintSo

I no longer have friends here. But, I'm not so sure I have them in real life either. Maybe they're all phonies. Liars. Schemes. Something placed here to make me feel as though I'm alright When I know inside that I am not. I was so well for so long.. And now here I am, perhaps Sunk even deeper than I had been. But now? There's nobody to save me. Nobody to carry me away on horseback Nobody to make me smile Nobody to let me know I'm needed because I no longer am. I'm just another face, that not one will ever remember. I don't want to be another statistic I don't want to be another article in the paper I don't want to be another traged

Well, it's been almost a year. I miss this place so much. I think I'll be around a lot more often now. I dumped my boyfriend. My horrible, terrible boyfriend... I found another, but he wasn't it either. There's a guy I know... I like him. He likes me. But neither of us are brave enough to move forward, and what a shame it is. I've been treading water for awhile... The sinking feelings are slowly coming back to me and the memories are tearing me apart, but mostly I'm tearing me apart. I hate it. More than I did the last time. I have scars now. Self-inflicted signs of what it to come. But, here I am. Alone. And tired. And really just needi

Well. It's been a long time since I've been on here. I miss this place. I miss the people and the pictures. Mostly I miss the things that it reminds of. I've recently realized I'm completely and hopelessly in love... And I'm okay with that. He loves me too, and life is good. But, when I start to think back to all the good memories I have from the past few years it makes me sad. In fact, I am not only sad but embarrassed. I was so in love. I had found the perfect guy. We had way too much in common, and we were just different enough so that we could still argue. Unfortunately, he didn't love me back. Never did. Never will. But, look at m